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Easy January

by The Justin Arena Project

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1.
New Safe Place 03:29
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I'm breathless in a good way Let me take two steps back It's been too cold to skateboard, It's how I usually get around You weren't such a wise one Don't worry i'm the same deal Don't forget pick up your package I left it on the steps for you I left it there for you And have no sympathy, For my demons are still in bed I Put them to sleep with some magic I found in my new safe place, in my new safe place Glowing by the candle light and cobwebs A Portal to a new realm Acrylic beauty and wooden board thoughts Maybe one day we will finally get caught Light from three ways, two usually work Noise from the mechanics put me to sleep I've been listening to your favorite songs They can't put me to sleep even all day long
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Illuminated 05:12
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Your Portraits still on my wall it doesn't look like you at all cluttered in stillness i drowned in change i never take it down no matter how i re-arrange Im still Illuminated by the lights that we left on in your bedroom,in my bedroom, were i write the fear away Im here to stay alone, to lie to myself, to lie to my own I wont pretend i care ill just prove, prove that im alive Laying down my feet seem so fa away Perspective is everything, at least thats what i say Lately ive been getting practice crying and i honestly have no idea why maybe im just too emotional, all i really know is that i love my life and i dont wanna die Im still Illuminated by the lights that we left on in your bedroom,in my bedroom, were i write the fear away Im here to stay alone, to lie to myself, to lie to my own I wont pretend i care ill just prove, prove that im alive Have you ever walked outside when you shouldn't? From Highland to Market to Central to Union? I marked it all down as i crossed the Border of The Town Have you finished taking note of the cold wet ground just yet? Fear Was Stronger Then Passion The Stakes Were higher then any of us could've imagined When Push came to pull we ran x2 Im still Illuminated by the lights that we left on in your bedroom,in my bedroom, were i write the fear away Im here to stay alone, to lie to myself, to lie to my own I wont pretend i care ill just prove, prove that im alive
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Scarecrow 04:05
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You give and you receive There is no in between If you want to run me dry I'll just let you then I'll die I'll be dead as my eyes roll back into my head Ill be dead Like a scarecrow standing in a garden bed String up the moon, it's time for harvest The leaves crunch off the solemn trees But no one can hear there silent screams, oh no The only creatures with acceptance are those who have scars to show I'll be dead as my eyes roll back into my head Ill be dead Like a scarecrow standing in a garden bed My joints are locked, I feel like I don't have bones For such a long time I've always been alone Despite the people that have passed In the end it didn't matter no one cared to last I'll be dead as my eyes roll back into my head Ill be dead Like a scarecrow standing in a garden bed Like a scarecrow standing in a garden bed Like a scarecrow standing in a garden bed
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I Am Not Dead 04:43
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I'm so numb I can't feel my noes A warehouse can paint the prettiest picture now don't you know? And I mean every inch of my sleeping space Take a look at my head to my toes I'm alive for once in my life I'm alive for the rest of my life Passionate obsession and and a cool breeze Passive subtle vibes blowing from the trees And I saw the window through it I saw the floor I hope that I am same my intentions are pure Chorus Maybe I'll echo again Maybe I'll call you my friend again.
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Imagery & Metaphors 04:53
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God damn I hate leaving ,Just as much as I always have If I could take away the part were I began Maybe I wouldn't start and I wouldn't grow so mad I didn't think my habits could drag me down that bad If anybody saw me this way I would be exposed but less then human, There wouldn't be too much to say I'd be cornered in the cold The erie silence would return, I'm getting to old already Bending over, throwing up, side to side I can't stand up Right to left they say smart up and grown a brain Stumbled steps, heavy doors, falling just to meet the floor We've become so acquainted I could go insane Because imagery and metaphors could never substitute Destructive Jealously and slave driving institutes Physically sabotaged, emotionally drained One day you'll learn What acting brave can truly convey It's like the cops are coming through kind of adrenaline Only there's no way to stop it no matter the agent But of course the effort continues I mean what can I say? If you were in hell would anyone really sit and stay? From hallway to lobby , my head stays ajar Waiting for some talent sweep me off my heavy feet and take me far But the kings Queens and there whistles blew astray the whole time That's how I can tell that life doesn't quite feel right Well maybe it's so difficult to try to see threw these tired eyes Maybe learning isn't talent but a hard developed skill Patience is finding time that you can kill and waste away I'll understand if you leave, I know I wouldn't stay (hold) It is much as I want to I can't run away I have to fight the fears and issues that restrain me everyday But the pain you don't get used to no it's corrosive it will make you stay A Point of view can be stated but not explained The shackles of depression haven't ceased to manifest And The little time I'm sleeping I can't seem to get some rest The Shaking never stops and of course i never feed I'm hungry and weak No matter how much I eat Why are we taught to self loathe even in our sleep Our Heroes are full of hate and our teachers full of greed Looks like the line is getting pretty long To hear the truth of were we rely all went wrong
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Down The Line 03:28
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You sold yourself to a fox all those years ago You become so nomadic, you can't seem to find a home Everything is Okay and things will find a place Lift me up until I'm dead and in a higher space I'm not self-conscious and I'm just cautious as my mother And I may be getting old but I'm not as bold as my brother Values will be the death of everything you know Nothing really matters when your getting ready to go down the line I was shaking like a leaf on a tree Wishing things were how they used to be And I find it a bit ironic That it seems so hard to find you iconic Come with me down the road We're the summer is hot and the winters to cold Shut the door in my sweaty beating face My demons lurk, do my dirty work. Let me see your face I was oblivious and crude To this sensitive ruse Why was I dealt this hand? was I just ment to not understand? Do think you think this is a game? Is it just me or are we both to blames Even when It won't show this doesn't feel the best I wish knew how to fix this mess
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Anything More (Ft. Julia Orenstein) 05:16
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Everyone makes mistakes and have been Down And trust me nobody wants to see you frown You know im always here for you til the day I die maybe i can make that heart with broken wings fly family and friends surround me till the end you cant get a grip of my cold dead hands around me are the people i love and care for and you cant convince me i could ask for anything more Reflections of the past Memories always last something about this cant be right Are you okay tonight? family and friends surround me till the end you cant get a grip of my cold dead hands around me are the people i love and care for and you cant convince me i could ask for anything more So i never want to see you try to come and join me on the other side ill see you in a hundred years until then, you can just pretend that im right here im sorry that we got so far, only to be torn apart but i know, you wlll know, that its no surprise that ill always be by your side Now its true sometimes i can be careless but tonight im not Ill be shakey and nervous but then youll see i care alot x2' famliy and friends surround me till the end you cant get a grip of my cold dead hands around me are the people i love and care for and you cant convice me i could ask for anything more
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Freedom Isnt Free But Living Could Be 04:31
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I can hear conversations that I can't take part in They can be pretty interesting if you listen on in I listen To these stories as far as I can hear I wonder the next time will you come around here? Join me in the state house were we could cut off all our hair I don't really care, I don't really care See me in the basement, I'm comfortable there I don't really care, I probably will never care I could care less for a corporate job I could less for working all weekend long I don't wanna be in debt for the rest of my life Freedom isn't free, but living could be, don't you agree? We may be distant, your never in sight But I still know your around me I know you'll be with me tonight I could phrase it in every wrong and right way I would continue talking but I don't have anything I really want to say Wait hold on, there is one more thing Believe in yourself keep on that silly grin Confidence is crucial and kerosene kills Watch your demons burn as you climb higher than they ever will
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Talking In Code 04:15
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I gotta go, and you're talking in code Saying I know where you've been and I know where you go But I've been tired from the minute I woke I stopped listening the moment you spoke and said I'm long gone yeah, I'm long gone And I'm sleeping alone in a house I don't own cause if you're touring your mind you'll get lost every time you'll sing me sad songs to keep me awake in that bedroom where we hid away Baby, I'm long gone. Yeah, I'm long gone. And your voice cracks like a piano you keep moving, but where are you going? Baby, we're long gone Yeah, we're long gone
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Meant To Fail 04:39
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All I really need is comfort And all I've been lacking is some rest So I'll show that im a lover I'll find the strength to get dressed Because nothing been the same since you've been gone And I don't know if it's for better or worse it hasn't been that long Some people change and some people don't ,you tried you best and failed That's okay, that's not your fault we were meant to fail Walking down my middle hallway you look over at me These things will be Okay, we're safe and we're happy but what happened to you these past couple months? You've turned to stone and shattered me to dust Because nothing been the same since you've been gone And I don't know if it's for better or worse it hasn't been that long Some people change and some people don't ,you tried you best and failed That's okay, that's not your fault we were meant to fail Gently smiling you walk back down the stairs Not realizing what you've done wrong you couldn't have a care But there's a fine line between happiness and bliss And neither of us will be anything but measurable tlll I ex you off my list Inside the courthouse you could be sentenced to death But knowing you persistence it's not over yet You'll tear up the building and bust up the walls But your issues aren't mine and I don't have he time to worry anymore Because nothing been the same since you've been gone And I don't know if it's for better or worse it hasn't been that long Some people change and some people don't ,you tried you best and failed That's okay, that's not your fault we were meant to fail
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Vanity 04:08
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Immediately, I vanish in my fears Golf club vanity, respect among peers The river flows, where did the time go? Don't end up in the past like me Hopscotch skipping, everything is black The days you're gripping, i'm never coming back When they are gone When you are gone Immediately, I vanish in my fears Golf club vanity, respect among peers The river flows, where did the time go? Don't end up in the past like me Daydream spinner, The night is in the air Offensive sinner, you couldn't have a care Stop, try to see ahead. Listen, to everything I said Immediately, I vanish in my fears Golf club vanity, respect among peers The river flows, where did the time go? Don't end up in the past like me Approach me now, after all you did Explain to me how, that talk was with your kid You can be a tool in life or life can be your tool Don't say I didn't tell you twice don't tell me I'm the fool here Immediately, I vanish in my fears Golf club vanity, respect among peers The river flows, where did the time go? Don't end up in the past like me
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Unraveled 03:42
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Uncurled fingers In your hand I could never understand How much you've had enough, please believe me I wanted to call your bluff But you cried and I screamed, neither of us with a shoulder to lean on Later that night I'd dream, that your still here with me There is so much I wish I said to you And so much I wish I didn't But I ran out of excuses the minute I let you Treat me the way you shouldn't, I grew to hate you But I've been so blind for all of these years When push came to shove I'd succumb to my fears And the sound of your voice made me break Down In tears (I used to wish we didn't get so bad But now I just we we never got past 3 months)4X
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We Are Not Kids Anymore 04:07
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I used to share a bunk bed with my big brother We would stare straight up and talk about the day before My little sisters mattress was on the floor We all piled up stuffed animals at the door We were young, we were sane We were different yet the same We were proud and hadn't met Shame just yet We stood in the corners of the hallway when we were bad Discreetly telling stories hoping not to get yelled at And we could only hope we wouldn't be there all night Our little legs would eventually give in I can still smell the carpet floor, of the old bedroom The aroma of burnt plastic and Dusty toys The cobwebs in the heater, behind the bed Thoughts of monsters and whatever was in my head
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Colors 03:58
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The sunset was nice today It reminded me of you Maybe that's me being too excited Maybe it's just true I'm sitting on my steps It's getting pretty dark It's getting pretty cold out here I think might go back inside I can't find the time to find your favorite color It'd not like I need to, I already know Green and magenta are both solid choices I like those colors to I could think about sky but it would be all to vast Or maybe just enough to see that nothing ever lasts X2 Nothing ever lasts I like those colors to x2 Woah x2
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We Lost Connecticut 02:49
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So much has happened in so little time At the end of the day I just hope all of you are fine I know I can turn to you when things seem bleak I know we're I can fall on my knees get to week There's not a face around that Ain't yours Where I can turn to past 4 AM I'm comfortable and safe Weve made a great place And we have nothing to show, to anyone But each other it seems, that's real intimacy I think It's meetingful that we can, throw lipstick down The Corridor and have it throw back So please we lost Connecticut my friends stay with me till the end
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Easy January 05:18
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We found a mouse at my work last light Trembling in the sink, terrified Shackled to fear it couldn't comprehend I cut my hand with a Calligraphy pen We left it my room again I felt pretty forced to play pretend I keep hurting myself in the end I just talked to you for the first time in months We are in the same room 5 days a week Ive been writing less melodies then usual Please try to Ignore the drawings on the wall I keep them there to nostalgically remember The time in late December that I'm never getting back It's the Middle of January and we finally got snow I wonder why it took so long I guess nobody knows There are so many situations That seem to move so slow I wonder why that is, And the glass around my frame starts to crack It's a gradual kind of break not really something that I lack I seem to cry a lot more when I'm tired and starving It's pretty normal to be exhausted, to feel weak, and struggle to function Say exactly what you mean I will be honest with myself I must've missed a couple details along the way If I was a lot more informed I'd have a lot more to say Distracting myself has become a habit and a hobby I know what's going on to an extent Letting my thoughts create what was going on Was The only thing that stayed easy Believing in myself even when was wrong Was The only thing It Was The only thing, Was The only thing that stayed easy.
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Break The Law In F Minor 03:18
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